I Will Love You Through Your Depression

“I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. If you need the medication again, go ahead and take it—I will love you through that, as well. If you don’t need the medication, I will love you, too. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert

You’re going to be more than okay. Tears don't mean you're losing; It means you’re alive. There’s nothing wrong with where you are right now. It's okay not to be okay. I will wipe your tears away as you speak about what is hurting you. I will hold your hand and whisper words of reassurance in your ear, because I know you’re not broken, you’re just bent. 

I know you’re stuck in the dark, but I’ll be your light. I will shine a light wherever you need me to. I will get you through the night until tomorrow comes.

I know you have scars on your heart, but they don’t scare me. Your edges don’t scare me. Your roughness doesn’t make me want to run the other way. Show me all the scars you hide. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. 

Nothing is as bad as it seems, I promise. You will learn to live again. One day you will open your eyes in the morning and feel excited to be alive again. I promise you. Your heart can’t stop beating when I’m here; shining on you, lighting the way. 

You will get through this. You are going to love you again. You will heal, transform, grow. Your life is just beginning. Loneliness doesn’t last forever, even when it feels like it will. Your heart burns with the light of a thousand stars and this will never leave you. You’re going to feel that insane over-the-moon feeling again, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.

For now, I don’t mind coming and joining you in the dark corner. I will sit there with you. I will see you through your depression. Those parts of yourself that you only show to me, I adore them - your imperfections, I love them. They make you, you. Like a jigsaw puzzle all your curves and edges fit perfectly together to make something beautiful. 

I can’t imagine my life without you. I love all of you. I’ll be your stitches, your oxygen mask, your defibrillator, and your flashlight. Whatever you need me to be. I will endure your aching mind, heart, body, and soul. I will show you who you are when you've forgotten. I will save you from yourself. 

Everybody's bruising. You are allowed to have moments when you’re not okay. I loved you from the first day I met you and baby I promise to keep loving you. Through every twist and bump in the road that threatens to tear us apart I will love you. We are stronger than depression and braver than loneliness and nothing will ever keep you away from me. 

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